It would have been our 3 year anniversary today. Its so stupid and annoying that I can't stop thinking about it. I remember that day so clearly, 3 years ago. That's all I've been able to be distracted by today so I've tried to swallow myself in work and phone calls and papers and other stuff. I wonder what he's thinking, if it bothers him, what we'd be doing today if we were still together to celebrate. It's so stupid! I'm so angry. I am so glad I'm here instead of on campus. I feel like such a stupid girl. I'm so pissed...but with who? With Michael? With God? With myself? Probably all of the above and then some.
I hate when there are days in our lives that will always (or almost always) have strings tied to them...or should I say chains? I know that this one will fade with time, but I also know that some never do. Maybe it just depends on what happened on that day and how important or how much of an impact it had on you? I'm not sure. Anyway, I'm just sorta frustrated that I can't get it out of my head, I couldn't sleep last night. I'm usually better at this, or maybe I just think I am. Maybe I'm getting worse.
There's no meat to this entry, just kind of a venting session without much of a filter I could go on, but the more I do the more angry I get and the more frustrated I am with myself. This is so stupid. Maybe more to come later, we'll see.
I don't really feel like writing about what we accomplished today, I've been working since 8 a.m. and it's almost 5:30 here. Got some good time in though.
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